I took a personal oath to not use these phrases:
I’m tired (I’m tarred or plum wore out….are acceptable in extreme cases)
I’m so busy
But today, in a moment of weakness, I let my guard down. My wife called me at work and could tell I was struggling, asked how I was doing. Without thinking, I responded with the queen mother of all dirty words……
“I feel defeated“.
I knew better. But… it was out of my mouth and I couldn’t take it back. Fudge!
The spirit of the rule is to stay in motion to conquer those days (pretty much every day) where life pulls you in too many directions. Work, parenting, crazy schedules, difficult people, sickness and physical pain, family and relationship problems, taking care of a home. That last nerve often dangles on a thin thread. It leaves little margin for error and things can run downhill in a hurry when things don’t turn out as planned (or especially when we simply fail to plan). Maybe there is an unspoken fear or just the voice of experience that tells us the walls might cave in if we stop moving and stop getting things done. That familiar feeling of having too much to do and not enough hours in the day to get them done. It’s a hard feeling to shake off day after day. We get fooled into thinking that our peace and our happiness depends on accomplishing everything that we fool ourselves into thinking we have to accomplish. We become prisoners of our circumstances and our tasks. and maybe even tell ourselves that we will serve and trust God a little more as soon as we get our head back above water.
Fear and stress can bring you to an abrupt halt and your state of mind only worsens. Paralized with fear or defeat.
“I can’t do this.”
For what? For God to do your work for you or to fix the mess you made by not planning well or working hard. Pray and wait? No…maybe….sort of. Pray for peace, guidance, and strength. Pray for the wisdom of growing in the understanding of God’s ways each day. And get your butt moving. Day after day, time after time, the to-do list is done, the work is done, and God lends peace from a better perspective of seeing more clearly the worthlessness of worry.
Matthew 6:27 ” Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?”
When we pray, we don’t know God’s timing, and we do have to wait. But I don’t think we really need to sit still while we wait. We’re not doing it ourselves because we don’t trust Him. We’re simply making a choice to not ask Him to carry us out of a rut that he has given us the ability to walk out of.
It’s usually not until the end of the day that realize that I have “won” yet again. I always do because my hope is in Jesus. Why couldn’t I see it that way when that feeling of defeat hit me? Perhaps because I failed to pray previously for His strength and guidance? Or maybe I did pray and I just failed to listen for an answer; an answer that could have been something as simple a reminder of where my hope lies. Sometimes it’s a reminder from an event or a person that lets me know I need to serve and glorify him through life’s storms, large and small……not just before or after the storms. But on those crazy days where I charge BLINDLY ahead
“I GOT THIS”
like I can conquer this day on my own, it doesn’t seem right to ask Him to carry my burden once I have dug in so deeply in the wrong direction. Finally realizing my own weakness and stubbornness, turning to God in prayer, my load sure got lighter when I asked him to walk with me………..once I stopped griping and started moving again with HIM.
Of course He was there the whole time, I just turned my eyes and thoughts in the wrong direction.
So go ahead. Pile it on.
“WE GOT THIS!”
Philippians 4:13 (NCV)
13 I can do all things through Christ, because he gives me strength.